I don’t know for 100% sure yet, but, I think my Unemployment Season will soon be ending. That is, if I can pass that dang drug test and if nothing “shady” pops up on my background check.
Ironic that Amber was talking about things like background checks the other day and I don’t remember ever going to work for a company and it being like this. I guess it’s just the times we live in and all but I was even more amazed that there were a few people in this thing with me who had concerns of things showing up on their background checks.
This one young girl turned to me and said “My charge was dismissed. Do you think that will be on there?” (Her asking the girl who was afraid to even think about attending a Kegger in high school for fear that I would be sent directly to jail for the mere thought) I told her she’d better ask the HR lady and sho nuff…they said if there’s anything in the background, mention it or they’ll accuse you of lying and stuff.
It’s also interesting to me that the last job I got after a “Lay Off Season” was obtained through the suggestion and encouragement of another blogger and this upcoming gig sorta kinda came through one of my blogging friends. Yeah, this little spot on the Internets has been more than just a place for me to ramble. Amazing. (I will divulge who my blogging sorta/kinda co-worker will be later so stay tuned)
Let’s see…what else is going on…..I’m bored. Bored outta my mind. I know I will look back on this season and be glad that I had a LOT of Solitude. That I haven’t had the stress of getting to work everyday but have been able to really have some serious “Me” time even though I would’ve never chosen it to be like this. I wasn’t planning on as much quiet as I’ve had at all, it’s just kinda worked out that way. It’s positive all around and I know it won’t always be this way.
I have moments that I feel like I’m gonna turn into Tom Hanks in Castaway and start talking to a soccer ball. I have come to realize that as introverted as I can be, I have a side of me that really longs for and needs other people to play off of. Matt was talking about this the other day….I don’t think we were meant to do life alone. That’s not saying I think I need a man or anything like that. I went a lot of years without having people close to me, other than family.
I can’t really say how grateful I am for my friends. The last time I was divorced, I didn’t have this kind of support network that I have now. It was just different. Can’t really explain it other than maybe I’m the one who is different now than I was in 2000. I’m sure that’s a big part of it. I know I am a lot more open and although I still have the tendencies to bury myself in my protective shell, I am re-learning how to be a friend as well as how to have them. That’s huge for me.
WARNING: VAGUE ALERT!
Matt was also correct when he was talking a few weeks ago in his sermon about letting go of certain things so God can bless us in other ways. I’m finding that to be so. Hasn’t been an easy thing to let go of and I’ve done so rather reluctantly…ok, kicking and screaming. Still, it’s OK.